Saturday, December 29, 2007

My Greatest Goal


I am currently busy doing a lot of things. I am working hard, studying things, dancing (which I’m happy to be able to do again despite the challenges it is giving me), thinking, saving money and learning. Basically, I’m trying to be really focused on my long term goals. I am 24 and I feel I’m getting really old now and should be getting more serious in life.

I am saving and studying many things to put up a business in the future. There’s one thing that I just want to have now, though, that I don’t really have any control over. I think that I should be growing with that special girl already… that girl who I will then be marrying. Since the time I have broke up with my last girlfriend, I have tried to prepare myself for the next girl that I will be committing myself to. It has been over 2 years now since the last time I’m in a relationship and I’m kind of excited because I feel that I’m really going to love that next girl. I feel like I have a lot more knowledge now on how to deal with trials and misunderstandings. I feel like I have pondered enough and learned from my experiences that I’m ready to meet that girl now. We will argue a lot, but every after misunderstanding, we will listen and talk, determined to learn and grow together. We will hug and kiss after, as a reward for a job well done. We’re going to have a foundation of honesty, care and respect. We are going to have joys that would last a life time.

I really wish I’ll be really successful in achieving my ultimate goal. I’ll surely work hard to put up the best family in the world. I will definitely continue in preparing myself for that. I will love them. I will constantly communicate with them. And just like what I and my wife are going to do with each other, I will grow with my kids. I will try to make them feel I am there to support them in every step of the way. I will show them the best choices every time they need to decide on something. We will fight and we will argue but everything will be fixed after we talk and have a healthful conversation where we are going to have the same best purpose. We will work really hard. When the time comes they will leave our home to put up their family, I will cry but I will be happy. I am going to be proud of them because they have chosen to choose the best things. They will visit me and their mother every time they can. They will try to imitate me and their mom. They will be crying every once in a while but will be shedding tears of joy, just like their parents, for the accomplishments each of us has achieved. And when the time comes where I will be resting forever, my family will be sad. They will feel just like what I will be feeling when my kids will leave our home. They will be proud of me because I tried to be a perfect model to every person, a perfect husband, a perfect dad, and a perfect friend to my kids. They will be proud because, even though I can not, I tried my best to be a perfect person to be able to achieve my ultimate goal… to put up the greatest god-fearing happiest family I can.

I'm not daydreaming too much, am I? :)

For the mean time, I have to do a lot of sacrifices and learnings for my self. I am going to make them happen… I will try my best to… :)