Koreksyon Po

I always find myself pondering on things lately and pretty much down much of the time. Well, thinking of things has been my greatest hobby but this time, I have been thinking of disappointing things. Two quite major instances happened to me for the last couple of months. It concerns elders. Which is why it is so disappointing. Three supposed to be respected elders did something really wrong and insisted they are not. Two of them even call me a liar when what I am just trying to do is to be honest. One of them said that what I did was wrong when a more reliable person said it is just right. At first, I just thought to myself that I just don’t understand them and that I just have to seek first and try my best to understand them. But the more I try to understand them, the more I think, the more I ask people, the more I read books, the more I look at the facts that happened, the more I talk to them, the more it gets clearer that they are wrong. These issues were really important to me and that is why I really tried hard to do things really well and made sure of my actions to be just right before acting it out. Also, that is why I really tried hard to make myself understand why things happened and maybe prove to myself that I am really wrong and what they are saying is true. But again, things just disappointed me because they are just but wrong. What are we supposed to do if we see an elder doing something wrong? Of course, we should first make sure if they are really wrong or not. But what if they are? Should we just go with the flow and let these things happen because it seems that it’s what every body does? Are we supposed to do nothing because they are elders? Could you call the action of not minding there mistakes an act of respect? Are we not supposed to do something in those instances because of the notion that old people can’t really change their attitudes or will really have a hard time changing? Do elders have the right to be bad?! I have tried things I can possibly do and will still try to let these people know they are wrong and hopefully put an end to these wrong doings. After all, correction is a correction… it’s not an enmity. We all make and compose a family, a city, a country, a world in a globe that we all share. Almost every little grievance in this world is an upshot of a mistake of a person. Being passive about them wouldn’t do any good. Mistakes should be bound to be fixed… regardless of who is doing it.

Starting Right

I have really been busy with my thesis paper in the past weeks. Could you imagine? Almost everyday, I was spending 5 hrs in the library trying to get the paper done with. It was tough! Everyone has been doing their paper with a group and unfortunately I’m defending mine alone. At first, I thought it was ok to do the paper alone, but, when I started doing it, getting the data and stuff, it was really tiring and tedious. Well, of course, doing it alone has some advantages also. There are no distractions, no anxiety of a group mate not doing the paper well enough, no compromising of study ethics, and one get to know every little thing in the paper. But then again, one still needs all the help he can get. Of course, that includes the help from Him. Besides having enough sleep, a prayer jump-starts your day and sets your mind to do things well during the day. Do you have one? Well, here’s what I say everyday. I got this from a prayer book a friend gave me. Maybe you can use this also. Remember, a prayer isn’t a prayer if it doesn’t come from the heart. So, hear it is.

Oh my God, I adore You and

I love You with all my heart
I thank You for Having created me,
Having saved by Your grace and
For having preserved me during the night.
I offer You all my prayers, works,

joys and sufferings of this day.
Grant that they may be all according to your will and
For Your greater glory.
Keep me from all sin and evil and
May your grace be with me always and
With those I love. Amen.

Missing Being In Love

Some random thoughts about what I miss in being in love:

those time stopping instances, just seeing her smile…

the “pa-cute” moments… and nothing is more important than her actions…

the care… the times when she’s acting like a wife… when she’s mad at me for not taking my medicine, trying to show she really cares…

the moments after having a big fight… it felt like a year of not seeing her… and all I want to do is hug her… and when we hug… incredible… so incredible…

the moments of surprisingly finding out cute things about her… for instance, when she suddenly make a really cute expression… and after that, I just want to cuddle her… and kiss her... coz I know it’s real… because I know it’s just an epitome of how wonderful she is…

the moments when she cries out of jealousy… it’s not really nice knowing that she’s crying… it’s just that deep inside, a part of me is really smiling, seeing how cute she is… crying because of fear of losing someone like me…

those sincere sorry kisses that stop anger in just a heartbeat…

the feeling of appreciation you don’t get from anyone else…

the days when time seems so slow yet so fast… it’s when, after spending the whole day long with her, it still feels so hard to say goodnight and have that last kiss that will end the day…

those scary moments… those fun scary moments…

the moments when she’s so happy… when she appreciated me after doing something for her… the moments when I get to prove to myself that a smile could really worth all my money…

those sudden hugs… that surprising kiss… that rush of feeling… that unexpected realization of knowing how lucky I am to be in love…