Preparing For My "Lucy"

I just watched 50 First Dates again and, watching it for around 5th time, it still gives me that feeling of happiness and excitement. I don't really know why but it even struck me even more this time. It's really a great movie to watch again especially in summer time. It makes you wanna fall for someone again. I wonder when will I fall for someone again. Yeah, I can really say I'm really excited for my next relationship. Recently, I've had some tough times with friends and some people I care about. It's really hard dealing with things sometimes and at first, I get that urge of doing something wrong or not worth while like what some people would do. They choose to go to party a lot, message people to flirt with, go to their liberated friends and get laid, etc. Well, for me, I guess prayers really work. God did guide me and helped me condition my mind not to be impulsive and be strong in those temptations of being so carefree. He helped me to reflect on things and learn from them. He helped me become a brother to a girl who doesn't value herself instead of being an opportunist. God helped and is helping me how to prepare for what He has in store for me in the future. That's why I'm excited about my next relationship. It's really a miracle how He have helped me and I just hope I'll be more consistent in what He wants me to do from now on. In the frivolous side: It's summer and I'm gonna go to the beach soon. I wonder if I'll meet my "Lucy" there... : ) one thing is for sure... I'm gonna have real keen eye! : )

An Unwanted Decision

Just three days ago, I found myself in a very tight situation. It all started when I decided to audition in a prestigious solo dance competition in TV. Out of around 80 who auditioned that day, I was included to the 4 dancers who passed. I really have a passion for dancing and I felt so good passing the audition. And the day they came when I had to sign a contract for the competition. My hopes were high until I heard that the rehearsals can be as tough as from 10 am - 1 am of the next day. Some of the people there even said our rehearsals can go on ‘til 5 am. I started feeling sad and asking the other dancers if I should continue. They all said that this is once in a lifetime opportunity and I shouldn't let this slip away. They even said I have a great chance of winning this competition. After hearing them, I stood firm and stayed with them and signed the contract. I continued my thinking and thought that my studies will really suffer, my parents will be mad at me and they will not, for sure, give me my everyday allowance if I continue, and so many other things to consider. I felt that I still have an obligation to my parents and that is to finish my studies. We are about to go to the dance guru that would train us that time and our handler asked me again if I wanna continue. She asked me 3 times before I made that very tough decision. I turned down the contract. Everybody, even the ones I don't know were shocked and were telling me I made the wrong decision. They were telling that I really have a great chance in the competition. But I made up my mind. I walked back to my car shocked and feeling so down. From that day ‘til yesterday I felt so sad. I felt that I have lost a lot; the group of friends I should've had; that once in a lifetime experience; the chance of being successful in what I really love to do; the opportunity I have always waited. This decision was kind of new to me… a decision that gave me a really hard time to make and after doing it even tormented me. It’s really hard to take. Nevertheless, with the help of benign people around me and with God's guidance, I finally got over it choosing to live my life to the fullest. A part of me may still be sad but I know that's only because the fruits of my decision is still in the pretty far future... and I know, that fruit is gonna be sweeter than the upshot of the other decision. The best things for me are yet to come and I'm gonna live my life preparing for them.

In My Life I Have Learned

In my life, I have learned....

that to be happy is a choice... you have to know how to see things... even the hardest fall can be a wonderful experience

that being wrong doesn't make you a less person... it just tells you what's right and that you can be a better person

that sometimes you can't change someone by forcing her to be so... or by nagging her... you just gotta love her and the change will come within her

that communication is one of the most important thing in a relationship... and to communicate well, you gotta know how to listen, you gotta have a good purpose, you gotta know you can be wrong

that if you loose someone it's better to look at her not as a personality but as a soul who chose to be with you for some time... if a soul is done, it goes... be thankful that for once it came to you

that no relationship would work without God in the middle of it

that you shouldn't judge people or even assume things... better seek first to understand and then be understood

that people need God