Starting Right

I have really been busy with my thesis paper in the past weeks. Could you imagine? Almost everyday, I was spending 5 hrs in the library trying to get the paper done with. It was tough! Everyone has been doing their paper with a group and unfortunately I’m defending mine alone. At first, I thought it was ok to do the paper alone, but, when I started doing it, getting the data and stuff, it was really tiring and tedious. Well, of course, doing it alone has some advantages also. There are no distractions, no anxiety of a group mate not doing the paper well enough, no compromising of study ethics, and one get to know every little thing in the paper. But then again, one still needs all the help he can get. Of course, that includes the help from Him. Besides having enough sleep, a prayer jump-starts your day and sets your mind to do things well during the day. Do you have one? Well, here’s what I say everyday. I got this from a prayer book a friend gave me. Maybe you can use this also. Remember, a prayer isn’t a prayer if it doesn’t come from the heart. So, hear it is.

Oh my God, I adore You and

I love You with all my heart
I thank You for Having created me,
Having saved by Your grace and
For having preserved me during the night.
I offer You all my prayers, works,

joys and sufferings of this day.
Grant that they may be all according to your will and
For Your greater glory.
Keep me from all sin and evil and
May your grace be with me always and
With those I love. Amen.

Missing Being In Love

Some random thoughts about what I miss in being in love:

those time stopping instances, just seeing her smile…

the “pa-cute” moments… and nothing is more important than her actions…

the care… the times when she’s acting like a wife… when she’s mad at me for not taking my medicine, trying to show she really cares…

the moments after having a big fight… it felt like a year of not seeing her… and all I want to do is hug her… and when we hug… incredible… so incredible…

the moments of surprisingly finding out cute things about her… for instance, when she suddenly make a really cute expression… and after that, I just want to cuddle her… and kiss her... coz I know it’s real… because I know it’s just an epitome of how wonderful she is…

the moments when she cries out of jealousy… it’s not really nice knowing that she’s crying… it’s just that deep inside, a part of me is really smiling, seeing how cute she is… crying because of fear of losing someone like me…

those sincere sorry kisses that stop anger in just a heartbeat…

the feeling of appreciation you don’t get from anyone else…

the days when time seems so slow yet so fast… it’s when, after spending the whole day long with her, it still feels so hard to say goodnight and have that last kiss that will end the day…

those scary moments… those fun scary moments…

the moments when she’s so happy… when she appreciated me after doing something for her… the moments when I get to prove to myself that a smile could really worth all my money…

those sudden hugs… that surprising kiss… that rush of feeling… that unexpected realization of knowing how lucky I am to be in love…

Sex and the City

I have been watching a lot of Sex and the City lately and I do find the show great. The lives of the four ladies are indeed interesting and entertaining. It’s funny and at the same time can also be educating. But here’s the “but” part: I don’t mean to be a killjoy for this matter, but it shows that casual sex is alright. Honestly, it really bothers me. Well, it will be fun for me if I’ll be having some casual sex anytime in the future, to tell you frankly. The thing is, I don’t like it anymore, just like when I was younger. I already know the many risks that come with it. Moreover, I don’t want to go steady with someone who does have casual sex. I want someone who will be just for me… someone who values herself not just when we became lovers. For this reason, I would rather have no casual sex and have a girl who really values herself than to have a lot of casual sex and be in a relationship with a girl who doesn’t treasure herself. Sex and the City is an award winning show, and indeed one of the best shows today, however, it do somehow connotes that casual sex is ok. Thus, it can, in anyway, change everyone’s perception of sex to worse. To my fellow guys, it has risks more than one can ever think of. I think you know what I’m saying, but if you don’t, would you still dare see it for yourselves? Of course, you have the choice. And girls, I hope you watch the show with a strong hold on your values, because many guys really want you… you who really have self value, to stay the same and to increase. Guys who go for an earnest commitment deserve girls like you! Don’t change. :)